Not counting visits to the dentist and dermatologist, yesterday was my first time to have a medical consultation since 2015. That’s the year I learned to practice Reiki on myself. Two days ago I felt my left eye was swollen, did Reiki on it, but the next day it got worse. So I went to see an ophthalmologist, and now am undergoing treatment.
Of course I had to look into the spiritual meaning of this, since as energy workers we know that illness starts on the energetic plane, and when left uncleared, slows down into the physical form. Louise Hay is one of my reference for illness and corresponding spiritual meaning. According to her, eye infections occur when you don’t like what you are seeing in your life. Bingo! Around the time the stye erupted, I had a very unpleasant interaction with a family member that brought up all sorts of old wounds and triggers. It was a humbling experience, because I was beginning to feel almost smug about where I was in life - a very good place, filled with peace, friendship, and inner spaciousness. And then Boom! Universe drops a bomb and all of a sudden you are down in the depths of your shadows of shame, inadequacy, questioning self-worth and integrity. WOW.
So what now? Nurture myself into healing once again. Embrace the lessons this relationship continues to provide for me, reminding me that healing is a LIFE-LONG PROCESS.
I am grateful to Christopher Luard for his Equanimity retreat, the perfect container for this inner exploration. I allow myself to be curious about whatever arises in my world – even when it comes to people you love and know love you but behave display very hurtful behaviour. How can I truly accept this and practice unconditional love? Big lessons, small stye, in my eye.
A few weeks ago, during my Gene Key retreat, I did a meditation (more like a Shamanic Journey, really) embodying the Pathway of Breakthrough.
During the meditation, we received a gift. The gift I received, to my surprise, was a rune. I felt some disappointment, even irritation, because I hadn’t used runes since my college days. The first thought that came to me was “another system/lineage/tradition... as if I needed that.”
But I saw the rune very distinctly, and after that thought came and went, I heard a voice saying “this is Odin’s rune.” I decided I would look up the meaning of the rune, that clearly appeared on a polished emerald, so I could not ignore the message.
The rune I received is called Ansuz. It is a rune of communication, of air, of the power of the word. Maggie Cunnigham, of Magin Rose, even compared it to the the Japanese Kotodama, which I was introduced to in 2016, as part of my Reiki master training. With Kotodama, Reiki, or life force energy, is transmitted through voice and sound.
Traditions throughout the world point to the power of the spoken word. It is said that fools blabber on mindlessly, but that keepers of wisdom use their words very sparingly.
“Be impeccable with your word” is the first agreement in Don Miguel Ruiz’s classic book, “the Four Agreements.”
If each word you spoke were a spell, how would you communicate differently?
When I was in high school, I was highly competitive academically and was either in school or studying. At one point I felt so exhausted that I thought I had Lupus, and subjected myself to a battery of tests, where nothing was found.
Later, in my thirties, I was working an office job in NYC and started having excruciating stomach pains. I was convinced it was a tumor. This time I had an endoscopy, and all they found was a sensitivity to gluten.
What I didn’t know back then, was that it was my own thoughts and lifestyle that were creating the unease.
It wasn’t until I started working with energy that I was able to manage my own health and bring vitality and ease into both my physical and mental bodies.
When two individuals are subject to the same outside attack from a foreign body, the determining factor will be the environment it is placed in. Thoughts and managing emotions play a big role in this environment through the chemicals our bodies release.
Starting a daily meditation practice or learning an energy healing modality such as Reiki are two ways to create an inner environment that will not allow harmful foreign bodies to thrive. The best thing is that these are both all natural tools with no undesirable side effects, and which can be practiced anywhere, at any time.
DM to start one of these practices today. I have both short and long term programs depending on your needs and readiness, as well as many free resources available.
Your health is in your hands.
